I had no idea it would be this hard!
I started college the 25th of August after eight years of being out of school, the things that I was worried most about don’t even matter like being the oldest in my classes and the fear of not being able to keep up is also unfounded because I am doing great. The things that I didn’t even think of however are killing me, like besides my hour of daily exercising I pretty much sat around the house. Now I am walking all over campus carrying a 50lb back pack sometime up 3 flight of stairs and I feel drained all the time. Plus the schoolwork is surprisingly exhausting, I understand it but afterwards I feel like I have just ran a mile. I also bravely choose Taekwondo for my athletic credit and I love it but I walk around with a sore body all the time, after the first lesson my husband had to help me lift my shirt over my head.
My weight is staying at 201lbs which is great because I am actually down to a loose 16 instead of squeezing into a size 18, I get compliments all the time from my family and friends. They are so proud of me and it makes me want to loose the weight even more, I actually got checked out the other day at school and that hasn’t happened since I was about 20 years old! I have been walking in the evening but I am finding it hard with the kids and school to fit any other exercise. Plus if I’m not busy enough with a 1 year old, special needs twins, and school I am starting a part time job to help supplement our income. How am I ever gonna add anything else in? I am getting a treadmill in 2 weeks and I plan to get up when my husband goes to work and get on it, but my willpower isn’t that great and I am so afraid that it will become an ornament in our living room.
I originally set my weight loss deadline to a year (july 09) to give me ample time to loose it but I didn’t know it was going to be so hard, I feel like the devil is testing me constantly. I will do so good with resisting food temptations and then an inner voice will talk me into eating something anyway almost in spite of myself. I pray A LOT! I know that I have someone stronger on my side but I still have issues with food, I either eat way too much or not nearly enough. Low carb, low calorie, sugar free, clean eating, ACK! Will someone just figure it out and write a book so we can trash all these other “diets” ? I know there are alot of big losers on here and it is so awesome to see those kind of numbers, is there any of you that figured out the eating thing for yourself? If so drop me a line because I have a closet full of siz 14s that I would love to fit in by Christmas! lol
I haven’t been on hear as much as I like and wanted to connect with my awesome buddies who have patiently sent me booster and who have given me amazing encouragement. I love you all and thank you so much for being there!
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You can do this. Hell, if I can wait 10 years to go back, then get through 3 years with 3 kids, then the last two years with 3 kids and a BABY, YOU can definitely get through this.
From someone who has been there and done that: let a few things slide. Keep your grades up, do enough laundry and dishes that your family isn’t living in squalor, but let go of any need for perfection. Figure out a weeks worth of healthy, easy meals that can be done in 15 minutes and don’t worry about whether or not everybody gets tired of having the same thing every Monday night. Learn to love your crock-pot. Nothing beats coming home from school and having dinner sitting there on the counter, all warm and ready to eat. If you must work, try to get a job on campus. Learn to study from notecards while you are doing the dishes or ironing; multitasking is essential. Embrace being a non-traditional student, because you will be a more successful student than your 18 year old classmates. It means MORE to you. If you have a professor who is intimidated by you (it WILL happen - they LIKE clueless teenagers they can push around and intensly dislike momma-bears who have learned to stick up for themselves) just let it roll off your back because it is only one semester. If it feels like it’s never going to end, count down weeks until the end of the semester rather than days. 10 weeks sounds much shorter than 50 classdays. You’ll make it, and once you get done, your family is going to be SO PROUD OF YOU!
Thank you so much! I never thought about preparing meals, that would be much easier for my husband. I do love school, I never thought I would say that but it so much easier than highschool. Thanks for your support and ideas!